I'm just not comfortable with this idea I have, to move. I mean I couldn't be any unhappier with Eddie if I tried...........it's only a matter of time before he fools around and loses the house and god knows what else.
But if i move and then have to depend on JUST ME........which is what I'm doing now, but not really..........then I will have to find more stable work. But what's stable anymore?? I've been out of the work force over a year now.......not good for a 54 year old woman,,,,,,,nearly 55. I am not confident that my current job is going to hold out for me. Constant questioning about my techniques with the baby during the day, my impatience with my granddaughter, my desire to force her Mother to stand up to her.............are getting me in more and more hot water. I'm sure in the back of her mind, she's probably thinking I helped push Sawyer over the edge....to move to his Dads. I'm not liking the way it's looking.........and certainly not feeling like I can depend on the money and the car, that comes with this job.
Questions?? Answers?? Nothing comes easily anymore. I'm at my wits end. Before I step off the deep end, I'd better KNOW and not wonder!!!
Dont' mind me, I'm just thinking out loud!
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you've made up your mind now... as far as the job goes...you evil wicked grandmother, you.... LOL i know you well enough to know you only want the best for your daughters and your grandchildren... i will not make all the comments i want to... just know that you can ALWAYS move to texas. ALWAYS. and we even have a spare car that isn't being used...
i hate what you have been going through and know you've been totally mistreating that baby - you can tell by all those painful smiles he forces when you take pictures of him.... LOL.... texas... nice country...
i love you
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